they say that if your thinking needs clarity, you must devote some time to it.
I’m totally confused these days. i’m out of focus and control. and so i mustered my courage and sought permission to go home. gladly, my boss said yes. i felt ecstatic when he said he’s amenable to my idea. that day, i met my sister and asked her to buy my ticket… lo and behold, i was able to avail the promo of PAL… i only paid 2,793 back and forth..hehe God, you’re really great.. but, i’m going home not only to relax and be with my family. there is a deeper reason behind. i hope that my short break will be worthwhile and fruitful… well, i just leave it all to God.. dear family, and friends..i’m coming..prepare the red carpet, invite the best band, the best robe, the gold ring and the fatted calf…for the prodigal son is back..jeje ei, it’s 2:00 a.m., better be going now…my flight is at 5:30..se yah..
the clock is ticking…it’s 1:10 in the morning. i just can’t sleep. my mind is fully awake and i guess there are thoughts waiting to be articulated and to be written. i just had a conversation with a good friend. she’s leaving for US tomorrow to have a well-deserved vacation. good for her. we talked for more than an hour over the fon, and discussed so many things.
we talked about happiness. when can one truly say that he/she is really happy? where does happiness reside? is it from the good things around us? or is it the absence of problems and worries?
i can say that i’m living a good life. good life in the sense that i don’t have to worry of what to eat, where to sleep, and what to do. i just have to look around and everything is within my reach, my fingertips. and i am very much grateful.
so, can i say that i am happy? of course i am. but the big question is would i still be happy if these things were not around? would i still be happy if i had to worry for my food, shelter, fees, and ol?
truly, man by nature is insatiable. we never get satisfied. there is always that emptiness within us. there is always that longing for something higher, and better.
i want to take risk. i want to see it all. i want to try surviving a day in a world where everyone has to work hard in order to eat. i want to experience the feeling of working under pressure, making both ends meet.
i want to get things through my own sweat and hard work. i want to be authentic. i want to see the reality that is happening around me. i want to be one with those people who walk so fast to catch the train.
i don’t want a world that is so artificial. i don’t want to live a life that is easy. i want to see and discover the real me. then i can truly say that i am happy.
risk.risk.risk.
yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, today is a gift that is why it is called "PRESENT"..this line is from the movie ‘kung fu panda.’
why do we dwell in the past? good or bad the past is past, take hold of the good memories and learn from those mistakes.
the future is uncertain. yes, we can plan out the things we want to come out or do or become in the future…but the question is: are we certain that these things will come to pass?
today is a gift, take hold of it. focus.
live as if it’s your last day. seize the day. engage yourself to doing meaningful and significant things.
serve your community, the people around you, leave a mark wherever you go.
always be a good example. walk an extra mile. venture deeper seas. soar higher. dream bolder. and live life to the fullest.
enjoy the ‘PRESENT’: it is a precious gift.
this is about my heart’s thanksgiving…for the busy, ever demanding, and tiresome, yet fun semester. for the disappointments, shortcomings, failures, and mishaps, yet liberating and happy experiences. for the sleepless nights, and long days, yet perfect moments. for the petty quarrels, sweet nothing, and extreme experiences, yet fulfilling. for the many doubts, fears, and confusions, yet strengths. for the demanding people around me, my ever wacky and cool friends and buddies, my great expectators, best professors ever, for my prestigious school, my community, my family, and everything that my life covers, thank you…i owe you a lot. My Lord, and my God…thank you…this is my heart’s thanksgiving…
many times i complained about the bulk of work that i had to do. several times i had the feeling of giving up and looked for new purpose and meaning. there were times that i thought that life had no sense at all. right at this time, i think i’m at the end of the line, and i just can’t breathe anymore. series of unfortunate events happened the past days until today. i just don’t understand why, where did i go wrong? how will i move on…i have been doing so many things to the best of my ability,but something is still wrong… and right now i have a long list of things to do. it is just funny that many people perceive you as invulnerable, strong, and free from worry. why?
today, i prayed…i almost cry because i realized it was only today that my prayer made sense in the past days. it was only today that i got reminded that God’s love does amazing things, more than my faith can imagine…
God, thanks a lot for allowing these problems to come to me bec. i’m reminded that i’m still human, vulnerable, and weak. with all of this, i surrender, for my heart is in your keeping.
i think it is just normal to feel tired as if you had too much of life’s expectations.
how funny may it seem but i sometimes wish that i could actually control things. how i sometimes wish to say no this time, and never stop at this one. is it really true that good things never last? you want to do this but you just can’t, you want to try and experience new things but they aren’t just right. things are in control, you merely follow. is life really beautiful? there are things that you just can’t understand. what am i saying? this is non-sense…oH! life’s absurdity.
well, am glad that the semester is over… i have one month to unwind, relax, and have fun. some of my friends way back in high school are coming to party with us…great and coOl. yet, i still have to finish our publication paper, tend the dogs and cats, and do the usual household chores. on nov. 2-4 we are going to iba, Zambales for our annual outing, whew! can’t wait…hahahaha…a happy life to all!
happy notre dame day to all. our activity since last night esp. for the juniors "cultural night" was really a successs. much more, the ball games today were really great as well as the palarong pinoy…wow! we lost…hahaha but it was really something…everyone enjoyed and really had a good break from the never ending school demands…congratulations to all…tnx for those people behind this you did a great,superb, and excellent job…cheers!
our celebration on the feast day of Mary’s Assumption was a success, we had a great and bounteous party, a bunch of tnx to all..and last friday we had our President’s day at LST despite the typhoon…we played different ball games as well as swimming (though it was freezing) whew! mind you it was fun and memorable…congratulations to the freshmen, keep rocking! cheerS!…muchmore, yesterday we had our recollection; a moment of deep reflecting and pondering…we had a talk on "passion for Christ and passion for humanity"…well, well, well, notice the halo?…hahaha
the storms of life may shake our ground, a greater peace still dwells in hearts…the dreams we build may fall apart, a greater hope still dwells in our hearts…fear no harm, we are ruled by a far greater love…a far greater love…(this is a song; this song points me to someOne higher. a God who does things more than our faith can imagine…
