life’s sting

i think it is just normal to feel tired as if you had too much of life’s expectations.
how funny may it seem but i sometimes wish that i could actually control things. how i sometimes wish to say no this time, and never stop at this one. is it really true that good things never last? you want to do this but you just can’t, you want to try and experience new things but they aren’t just right. things are in control,  you merely follow.  is life really beautiful?  there  are  things  that  you just can’t understand.  what  am i  saying?  this is  non-sense…oH!  life’s  absurdity.

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