my prayers are suddenly getting real.

many times i complained about the bulk of work that i had to do. several times i had the feeling of giving up and looked for new purpose and meaning. there were times that i thought that life had no sense at all. right at this time, i think i’m at the end of the line, and i just can’t breathe anymore. series of unfortunate events happened the past days until today. i just don’t understand why, where did i go wrong? how will i move on…i have been  doing  so many  things  to the  best  of my ability,but something is still wrong…   and  right  now  i have  a long  list  of  things  to  do.  it is just funny that many people perceive you as invulnerable, strong, and free from worry. why?
today, i prayed…i almost cry because i realized it was only today that my prayer made sense in the past days. it was only today that i got reminded that God’s  love does amazing things,  more than my faith  can imagine…
God, thanks a lot for allowing these problems to come to me bec. i’m reminded that i’m still human, vulnerable, and weak. with all of this, i surrender, for my heart is in your keeping.